look at me!!!!!Tuesday, May 31, 20058:20PM - Not MuchHey all what have you been up too? I have been sitting at home. You know the usual for me. I went to my law thing and the coach told me I can't be an attorney in the tournament. I have to be a witness becasue he wants his veterans to do it. Well how the hell am I supposed to learn what to do if I am not given my chance. I told him that and he was like oh well better luck next year. But I am cool now so just give me a call and we will plan something!! Current mood:  Trampoline for 2 hours -ouch!!Current music: Incomplete- Backstreet Boys Saturday, May 28, 200510:44PM - Funnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!!111Hey homies, well I am just sitting at my friend Tashas with her and bree. So I just thought I would drop in and say hey so ummmmmmmmmmmmmm hey Well I am going to go Current mood:  Oh well whatever makes u happyCurrent music: Tasha quoting Starsky and Hutch Monday, May 23, 20058:37PMHey guys. I just got home from the Choir Banquet. I won three awards a bar for completing a year a letter for completing two years and then my Expression girls suprised me and voted me Outstanding Choir Member. I dont know how many of them read this but Thanx it means alot. My car is here and all I need to do is get plates. I already have insurance so ummm yeah. Well I am going to go Current mood:  <-- Outsatanding Choir Member!Current music: Songs in my head Monday, May 9, 20056:56PM - I think I was adopted???Hey guys how has your day been? Mine was all peachy till I got home. Ok ay for starters have you ever wondered how some one who is mostly a good peron and has a good heart can come from somoeone that is mean and hateful? I do everyday I wake up and remember that I am my mothers daughter. I love my mom to death so dont take what I am going to say wrong but she is so mean and has a heart of stone. She got mad at my grandpa and told him that my sister isnt allowed to go with us on vacation. Okay any one who has known me for more that 5 seconds knows that my lil sis is my whole universe. Well my mom is refusing to let me talk o her because I wont live with her. Hey she is the one that went back to the scum bag Michael not me!!!!! But we just got into a big fight and she made me feel guilty for being who I am. I know that a lot of the family fights that go on in my house are because of me. My grandma wants to raise me one way ( and she has every right to she has been my mother figure for the past 15 years my mom had the first 2) and my mom wants to raise me another. Well my mom makes me feel guilty that I was born by telling me and emphasizing that I am the reason for most of the fights. I just cant see how someone like me who is a happy easy going person with a heart of gold can come from my mom who is hateful and thinks that every one is out to get her??? I love my mom to death but I mean come one . Well I am glad to get that off my chest. Well I'm gonna go srry to depress you but I feel a little better now. Thanx for Listening to me!!!! (IT helps) Current mood:  I dont get moms!!!!Current music: Will Smith's Switch Sunday, May 1, 20057:39PM - What was missing???!!!Hey guys last night was prom. I looked pretty good actually. I had fun except I felt like something was missing and I couldnt put my finger on it. I slow danced with my friend Marcus and all that bt the whole night I felt like here was a big hole in my heart like I had lost something special to me. I irritated me that i felt like that. I thought I was acting ungrateful. Some people cant even go to prom and tere I was with a dancing partner and all and still felt well.... empty. I still dont know why I felt so empty. At first i thought it was necause not all my friends were there but not all of them go to the dances anyways. Then I thought amybe it was because I didnt have date but once again I havent had a date to any other dance at Ben Davis. So I dont know When I do I will tell ya Im gonna go Current mood:  I dont get it!!!Current music: none Monday, April 25, 20055:04PMHey thought I would drop in and say hi and tell everyone that Iam okay. Well I'm gonna go Love tess Current mood:  restlessCurrent music: Avril (Forgotten) Friday, April 22, 200510:19PMHey guys I went on a field Trip today and had a blast but was a little worried about my Guitar!! I hope you feel better and I am giving up on Wyatt. But oh well Better luck next time right Love ya Tessa Current mood:  Feel better Guitar!!Current music: Eagles-Hotel California Monday, April 18, 20058:25PM - RamblingHey what up just thought i would drop in and say hi!! So ummm Hi Love tessa Current mood:  Damn heatCurrent music: my thoughts(do those count) Thursday, April 14, 20058:47PM - What up Ho!!!!Hey all just thought i would say hey and talk to ya later Love ya Tessa Current mood:  Man im tiredCurrent music: Love is a battlefield Tuesday, April 12, 20056:39PM - Boys!!!Hey all I know I dont update very often so here it goes. The only really exciting thing that has happened is that I got to kiss a guy that I like and it wasn't kyle. So ummm... yeah since no one comments on here I guess this is for my own memories. Well im gonna go Love Ya Tessa Current mood:  AHHH kissesCurrent music: My thoughts Tuesday, March 29, 200510:41PM - Agressive angerMy mom is just driving me nuts.She says one thing then does another. But I am going camping with my cheeto and my baby(yeah I'm working on it.So I can get far away. We are going to Turkey Run and as Tracey put it there is going to be some love making. Well thats all I'll update tomorrow promise. Current mood: MMMM KYLE and CHETTOCurrent music: My spongebob clock Saturday, March 19, 200510:47AM - I'm backHey you all I am finally back I don't think anyone really reads this but I still write just to get my head straight. Since the last time I wrote my great grandma caldwell has died and I miss her alot my evil g.g. is still here though. I have started to talk to Kyle again and we are about to date for the first time. YES> My mom has moved back in with Michael. Ihope he is castrated so he cant reproduce but other than that I'm good well I'm gonna go Ill try to update later By Tessa Current mood:  It is just all right nowCurrent music: I wanna Rock By twisted sister Saturday, July 31, 200412:18AM - Update FinallyHey all. Sorry it takes me so long to update. I have been going through a lot of crap. But I am alot better now. I just had a lot of problems to sort out. It is hard for me to actually sit down and but my emotions in order so that is what I a have been doing. If any of you feel like I have been distant just comment on here or call me. I just have been going kind of crazy. Later today about noonish I am going to Chuck. E. Cheese with my cousin Bambi and our moms. It is funny I am almost 17(one month to go) and she is almost 18(three months to go)and we still love doing dumb stuff like that. I think I am staying the night with her so we can talk abut some stuff. She is the one I go to when I need a shoulder to cry on. It has been like that for as long as I can remember. N E WAYZ me sitting down and working through all this crap has put alot of things in plain view. I can see how some people lie to me and I am still their friend and act like nothing is wrong. That is going to stop and I can see how some people will watch you hit rock bottom and still talk about all their problems and then say you are the bad one. Oh well I am gonna go I just knid of needed to vent some frustration. Oh and P.S. To Cheeto I found out Chris is Michael and my mom and him are getting back together. Call me and I'll tell you all about it. LOVE YA ALL Tessa Current mood:  determinedCurrent music: Korn -BEAT IT UP RIGHT Tuesday, June 22, 200412:00PM - ReflectionHey all sorry it has been so long since I wrote. But Yesterday wasa suck ass day. Me and my boyfriend broke up. We had only dated 11 days but we had known each other for 5 years. I fell in love with him 3 years ago. But I am only mad at myself for falling for all the stupid lies again. I am trying to reflect and take time to think about everything and close this chapter in my life. Well I'm gonna go Current mood:  crushedCurrent music: my sisters voice Tuesday, June 1, 20041:46PM - ThoughtsHey all, sorry I haven't wrote in a while. I have been busy. My grandpa Drotz died recently. I haven't been up to doing alot. Then my Uncle Bud is in the hospital and they are pulling the plug on his life support system tomorrow. I feel like everyone around me is sad and I can't deal with it real well. So I'm srry to anyone who reads this if you feel like I have been alienating you. I don't mean to I'm just going through a tough time right now. Love ya all Tessa Wednesday, May 12, 20048:38PMHey well nothing really exciting has happened. I am just fed up with my great grandma and my grandparents. They all three are always yelling at me and I'm going to go crazy. My G. G (great grandma)is a jerk. She acts like she is my mom. The other day i wore a skirt that was down to about my knees and she said you look like you are wearing a napkin. I was like this isn't the 1920's anymore so just stop. Then my grandparents try to tell me im a good kid then they tell me i have done something wrong and can't go out anywere. My mom tries to help put she is to involved with work and her bf chris who I really think is her ex that i cannot stand at all Michael to bad he can't fall of the face of the universe. Well thanx for listening. I g2g LOVE YA LOTS TRACE Current mood:  bitchySaturday, April 10, 200410:13PM - Easter DreamsHey well it has been a while since I have wrote in here. It is the day before Easter and it is the first Easter in my new house. It is kind of weird. I had a lot of memories in my old house and plus this is my first Easter without my Aunt Carol. She past away in August of 2003. I miss her alot and it seems to be getting harder every holiday no matter how small the holiday. It was just little things she did to brighten each day up. But I'll make it. Oh Cheeto Jon called me Yayyyyyyyy!!!!!!! We talked about things and I kind of in a way asked him to the dance. He said if he was going then yeah. I know you are happy for me. He was flirting with me and we just talked about life. and then we flirted some more. ; ) Current mood:  calmCurrent music: Poison: Every Rose has its thorn! Saturday, March 20, 20046:24PM - Im back really this time its meHey well this is the first time I have wrote in here. Thanx for making this for me Tracey. So this week has been awesome. Friday I asked Chris (a guy I like ) to the 80's dance and he said yeah. I was so happy. Then tonight Zella is staying the night so we can act stupid. She is a really good friend. I still love ya Cheetho <--- ha ha ha!!! (inside joke) Next weekend her me chris and his best friend Jason who Zella is crushing on are all going to the movies to goof off. Maybe Tracey and Derek should come to hint hint. It wouldn't hurt. Plus me and Trace could spend time together too. We don't get to do that to much. Well I'm gonna go. Current mood:  ditzyCurrent music: Poison Saturday, March 13, 20044:14AM - ummm...well... this is the first entry. well, actually this is tess's best friend (cheeto) writing for her. she's asleep right now, but i'm sure she wouldn't mind. i can't sleep and i wanted my friends page to change so... yeah. well... i'm leaving now... bye! Current mood:  boredCurrent music: *silence* |
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